Pure Weakness…

I had doctors and nurses scolding my mom before my eyes… and I was deeply hurt by it…

Going from appointment to another appointment, ward to another ward… 

it became normal

The only reason i hold myself back was because those very same person were assigned to serve my mom’s medical needs and assistance…

My pure weakness that is…

Not wanting any of those service goes wrong just because of any retaliation that comes from me..

Kept on telling myself 

Doktor mungkin penat, pening, lapar, stress…

But still sad…

I do meet great healthcare personnels along the way too… 

Really great and humble..

I mean it!!

But, what makes them different?

(Food for thought)

Note to self:

The greatest man alive…

A great leader to many, an army, a teacher, a husband, a companion, and a prophet s.a.w…. 

Brought the truest teaching of Islam to the world, was never known to be harsh in character, throughout his entire life…

no excuses

Kan?

Kenyang~

 Makanan jasadi dan rohani berbeza sifatnya...

Youtube dan facebook meriah dengan pelbagai seleksi hiburan dan ilmu...

Semuanya ada......... umpama pisau, pemegannya lah yang menentukan ianya menjadi alat yang bermanfaat, atau alat yang membahayakan...

Tetap, nikmat berukhuwwah dan mencari ilmu secara maya berbanding dengan fizikal... adalah jauh berbeza...

Nikmat bertemu wajah sesama jemaah dan guru, itu berbeza...

Kenyangnya lebih, nikmatnya berpanjangan..

P/s: usah terlalu yakin Allah terima amalan kita... supaya kita terus menerus berusaha menambahnya... dan merayu-rayu supaya Allah menerimanya...

Acik food poisonong.....

 Tak pernah dalam sejarah, masuk ward seumur hidup,

Allah bagi hadiah rehat dalam ward tahun lepas, due to food poisoning. There's nothing left in my system anymore. Semua yang dimakan was ejected out instantly. Not enough energy to even stand, let alone work. Same goes to my bowel. Nothing stays! 

Warded!

Berapa hari di layan nurse di ward. they kept on calling me acik agin and again and again...

So, this is how it felt like..... being old... (talked to 'lembik' self at that time)

 So I played along...

"Ambilkan acik, tu.... Tolong acik ni... Tolong acik itu...."

Memang dah tua, tapi, saja nak ajar diri merasa lebih  tua.... 

Kinda fun actually~

p/s: me being my own mom for three straight days... hidup acik!

Read:

Ayam! Epal!

 Lama tidak berkunjung ke Sarawak bumi Kenyalang...

Kali terakhir ziarah besfriend di sana, 

Sahabat yang berkongsi nama yang sama seumur hidup....

Sikin..

Kisah sepuluh tahun lepas.... masih ingat disebabkan keunikannya..

ayam tak pernah salah

Dalam beberapa hari bermalam, dapatlah berkenalan dengan dorm mate Sikin yang amat unik!

Terdengar rakan dorm Sikin sedang marah-marah, tak tahu pada siapa dan asbabnya

Ayam! betul... Dasar Epal!!

Allahu... terdetik dalam hati dan terus berfikir-fikir...

Apa yang ayam? Apa yang Epal?

"Kin! Apesal tu? Kawan tu? Marah-marah Ayam dan Epal?"

Kata Sikin;

"Oh, mak ayah dia ajar untuk jangan mencarut, jadi kena ubah perkataan yang kasar dan keras tu jadi Ayam, atau Epal, atau apa-apa yang tak berbunyi kasar"..... 

Pom kitorang ketawa 😂😂😂

Ayam betul!

p/s: meluah kenangan, sebab rindu Kin. Kau dah jauh diculik Farid ke Shah Ale🤣

The other way of looking at it...

Orang ramai kata: 

Bagusnya letak nama pada barang... mesti sayang harta kan...?

Myself:

Letak nama pada barang, supaya tidak terambil barang orang lain tanpa sengaja, dan ambil tanggungjawab atas barang yang kita yakin, bukan orang lain punya...

dan bonus... kalau orang baik jumpa, dia pulangkan semula~

-menjawab kenyataan makcik bawang-

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Iman Book:

Other half..

 Old couples are more calming to look at...

They've gone through thick and thin together,

yet decided to stay with each other..

It's a form of rizq, some might get, and some might not in this world... 

But,

Allah has created us in pairs,

We might not know when, we might meet our other half...

Maybe now, or later or in another world...

Eventually, we will....

p/s: This entry was me countering bitter perceptions and judgements from people around me... labelling me with distasteful names of 'the unmarried'... 

It was a joke to them all, and I had to bitterly smile along to kill the awkwardness..... 

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COPY-CATTER

A friend once told me she has this one colleague who would

buy the things she bought, 

wears the same brands she's wearing,

acts the way she acted

and to some extent, talks the way she talks too..

P/s: Are there such people?

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